He
shoveled teeth into the squirrel's neck.
Blood,
tasting of stale piss, splattered on the front of his moccasin
jacket. In the moonlight, it was a deep maroon until, within a few
seconds, it turned a brackish-brown. The insides speckled the front
of him, landing like rain droplets on a canvas.
A
bandanna
was wrapped around the hunter's forehead. The hair poking from the
peak looked like steam spewing from a scalding tarn. It was chaotic,
unkempt, vibrantly red. The material's fabric had filigree symbols
written in an old Japanese script. Loss.
Regret. Hunger. It
meant everything and nothing. He was Kitsune, the
muzzle poking out from under the bandanna
proof of this fact.
The
night around him was as black as an opossum's anus. Wolves howled
from the top of 'M' mountain, an old University symbol from before
the GREAT CHANGE. A court of faeries giggled as a passing elk farted
in the wood below. Spirits bounced off leaves and trunks. They were
following a man close to death, as he fled, watching him, waiting for
him to fall, for the forest to consume him in its magickal womb and
spit him back out again as something new and precious.
The
veils were collapsing, and the oldfolk were spilling into the
material universe. And when I say oldfolk, I mean faeries, pixies,
elves, spirits... all of it.
The
spiritworld
lit up the night, their eyes observing behind the leaves, in the
clear brooks with the fish, the lights that floated like cotton in
the spring. They were the giggles from all around, tumbling from the
haunted spaces where the eye was afraid to follow. You
see, this
was their forever-realm, and any man who entered a trespasser. Once
upon a time a boy or girl could sneak out in the night, try to catch
the spirit bubbles in their teeth. They tasted like candy, like sugar
sweets-- But now man was an interloper inside a dangerous
always-kingdom, one that could decide to crush him if it was ordained
by the unconscious will. There was no reason here, only unending
knotting and tangling of bark, wet twigs, and
fungus. Magic
had returned to the world, and it was eating away geometry.
The
hunter's eyes deepened their yellow, and he spit blood down his chin.
"Aishiteru, Imoto-chan," he mumbled. He tossed the carcass
aside and grabbed an arrow from the quiver along his back. His
man-prey was below him, and he ran his fingers along the salt-tinted
feathers. Kanpekina kanji. Yes,
feels right. Feels good. They
made a soft flip
noise each time he petted them. Licking his lips, humming, stringing
up his bow, the fox tail that stuck up from the seat of his pants was
stiff as he concentrated. Man-flesh.
Kill man.
It was a creaky voice from the back of his skull, and it was
consuming him. His arms sprouted in goose bumps from the possession,
though they were already moist with sweat. The hunter was used to
this sensation, the two happening in the same breath. Still, It was
an incongruence that sometimes got to him, an oddity in an already
konran suru
world. The Kitsune didn't like the tension. He wiped the sweat away,
leaving his arms a mess of risen red hair and his senses in a state
of confusion.
"Imaimashī,"
he whispered, briefly losing the loner trampling below him.
A
moment of panic... but he was still there, racing between the trunks
and branches. The trees were tightly woven in this forest, and the
hunter was atop one of the branches looking down at the rugged paths
twisting through the wood like water over a falls. The tracker tried
to form a thought, but his mind was consumed by the stacatto
scolding. You fool, I will flay you
like a pig. Don't do it! Fool! Fool! I will devour your soul like the
sky-poseur drank the titan's blood like wine.
He moved the arrow near the bow. His arms were layered in bumps as he
tightened the string. It would be so easy to kill the man. He was
dying and stupid. Not yet, the
voiced hissed again. The time is not
yet right,
it said. Wait, wait til I order it
or I'll skin you alive, like a little foxy, m'dear, me m'dear,
mortal. I will eat you whole, like the little foxy you are.
His
fox tail twitched.
The
threats were usual, but he couldn't help but wonder if he wasn't
wrong this time. He had the chance to kill the man now, why not take
it? Isn't that what the voice wanted, after all? Isn't this why he
had had the man tracked by its goons since the Lost Battle? He was
right there, loud as a dying varmint clenched between his teeth...
Unless...
The
hunter understood, and he slunk down, falling back into the night
shadows.
*
* *
The
man below, surrounded by the denizens of fae, did not know the
hunter, for now at least, had given up the chase. Troy was his
appellation. He was a swordsmen, a Zenai.
His
breath was ragged and sweat flowed down his brow. His face was messy.
His cloak was covered in weeds and mud, but his mind was clear as a
fucking spring. The man didn't know much, but he did know he was
being tracked. He had had many companions at first, but now there was
only him. Troy flung himself through the underbrush like a pinball in
a maze. Boing. Boing. Boing. He hit the bumper, pulling off a combo
as he glanced the drop target and ascended through the habitrail,
which were really a rock and a vine.
Troy
had watched one of his best friends shot down a few weeks earlier. It
was the middle of the day in the empty blue prairie. The sun was
directly above and as he approached his fallen comrade, he had seen
the arrow poking from his side. After running, falling, running some
more, he had eventually not come to the conclusion that one might
after seeing such things, that life wasn't that important, wasn't
meaningful. Instead, Troy found himself landing on the opposite, life
was the most precious thing.
Troy's
pants were dirty under his cloak. He had shit his pants weeks ago and
had done so many times since. The feces stuck to his legs. And the
scabbard against his side would kick up shit flakes when it hit his
leg as he ran. Troy couldn't stop. That's how the Kitsune had got his
friend. He had stopped to take a shit. Troy couldn't. He had to keep
running and running.
His
forehead had diamonds of sweat on it, and gasps were leaving his
mouth like a dying furnace. He massaged his stomach, feeling
light-headed as if there was a fly trapped between his eyes buzzing,
buzzing away, zipping around inside his skull, landing on the
meninges of his brain, and rubbing its arms together in there. It was
because of him,
Troy thought, because of his pursuer
above in the trees,
and he couldn't help but believe he was losing his mind as well-- but
can I decide if I'm going crazy? Can I just be done with the buzzing?
The- The- The fly in my brain? A King- A King in Yellow. He
wanted to laugh, but that would give away his location for certain.
I-
I am going crazy. There is no escape. No escape from the Yellow King,
Troy
thought.
A
black creek appeared in his vision. It looked like the river Styx
ferrying lost souls to Hades, and it reflected the eyes between the
trees, a myriad of shapes, sizes, and colors. Some looked like
crystal balls illuminated by candles, others with lids the petals of
flowers, still others like those of an animal, a horse, a lion, or an
elephant, large and blinking lethargically.
Wondering
if it wasn't all a hallucination, Troy leaned down. He splashed water
against his face. So cold it felt like needles, but it cleared his
head. He had to keep moving but the wood was unyielding. It engulfed
a man like the ocean, not spitting him back out until it had wasted
him away completely-- his mind was realing. He desired the sharpness
of the freezing water. This time when he stood again, he tried to
ignore the watchers all around him. He felt his tracker's presence
pulsating through him, through the watchers' visions, like it was
living inside them, a coldness, more inscrutable than that of the
creek. His hand twitched. His pulse was rapid. Nothing
he could do. Everything
was diseased, lifeless, dead inside him.
This
man needed out.
He
fell into the creek, submerging under the flow. When he broke the
surface, it felt like he had been under longer than he had. His body
was already shutting down. But he forced himself to continue on. It
was for them, his wife and boy. His legs moved slowly, kicking up sediment from the rock bottom. It caused dirt twisters to form
around his footsteps. If it were light and the water clear, he would
have looked a dark god with clouds in his wake.
He
reached the other side, collapsing onto the bank. After awhile he let
his legs hover on the surface of the creek behind him. Weeds pressed
against his face on the stone. They felt good. His organs didn't want
to work, arms or legs or lungs or lips. Don't
stop. He
raised his arms, crawling up further on the bank, every motion
painful. This was worse than seeing his friend die. Screw you for thinking that, Troy. He
lifted himself but fell again.
Troy
couldn't move, closing his eyes, listening to the moving water,
sounding similar to wind chimes. He could perish here, let it all go,
let the forest consume his body. There was dignity in that. A boy's
face. He had smooth, tan skin, and midnight eyes. He smiled at the
man, and the man did not forget. He remembered the promise made. The
Zenai placed his palms against the rock, lifting himself. He cried
out, but the swordsmen in the city would never stop and neither would
he. The sound of water was the only noise he heard, the pebbles
kicked up by his moving legs.
He
stood by the water. His body was hunched over, and he was chilled,
but that didn't change what he had done. I
did it. He
couldn't believe it. "I did it!" He howled in victory,
pumping his arms up towards the canopy. He was on the bank, the
spirits' lights filling the forest with a ballet of spinning dancers
the size of seeds. The eyes glared at him, some in relief, some in
surprise, some in anger that he had escaped. "I did it!" he
yelled again. "Take that, you bastards!"
More
eyes twisted into angry triangle shapes as he hurried off again.
His
legs hurt, but nothing would stop him. "Spiritus saltus transire
permittas. Petiisset spiritus, non gratum intus animos parari,"
he breathed, his voice trembling and water dripping from his legs.
They were giggling now, sounding like a child's wheeze on a summer
day. He could only pass them by listing off spells, some he barely
remembered from when he had trained up in the castle's towers. "Vos
nescitis quidquam, aut ubi sum vidi. Quae sunt. Benedicite spiritus,
et non subsistam." They faded as the Zenai spoke, candles that
dimmed with the wind. The spirits respond to Latin, Master Sunday
told me once. It's the language of the Romans, the language of the
Masons, the builders, the shapers of the universe in God's image.
They respect it.
The
forest trail grew darker as the spirits faded away. Moss piled on
branches; leaves shielded the stars from him; and shrubbery and
mushrooms covered the crunchy earth. There were slugs hanging on
branches and leaves, holding on like thousands of cave stalactites
glistening moisture. It was a prison, an odd prison, but a prison
none-the-less, constructed by no one. He tried to remain silent, but
found it impossible. He was too excited to be quiet or avoid loose
branches, which looked like they had arthritic fingers, gnarled and
painful, reaching out at
him.
If he didn't bat them away, the things would snap
him in the face, scratching his skin or
worse.
He was too excited because he was coming home.
He
was coming home to the Gilded City of Bozeman, Montana.
The
forests outside its gates were endless. They rose up and kissed the
sky, their foliage forming beards against the mountains' sleeping
faces. The trail was opening, becoming less dense with vegetation,
and as he left the forest behind him, a massive wall was revealed.
*
* *
...Tails.
You listening, buddy?...
The
Kitsune had halted. An engorged, bloody moon was above him as he
leaned against the trunk of a tree, high above the ground. The branch
on which he stood was a thick one. The timberland was amok with the
spirits of the dead, of the imps of the forests, dancing around him
looking like fireflies in a disco club. On his back was a beautiful
onyx quiver which reflected an emerald color in the moonlight, oddly
enough, and across his shoulder was the bow, long, menacing. His
arrows were holstered.
The
man.
The
man was fresh in his mind.
They had been hunting this man for weeks. No, not hunting really. More like trailing him, making him think he would die at any moment. Kitsune were once considered myth except by maybe a few Japanese old-timers. Times had changed. His fox tail wagged back and forth, not like a dog, more like perhaps, a playful feline. If he were to ever get caught in the world of men, it would because of that stupid tail. The Kitsune's stomach ached for more. These past few weeks had been stressful on him, and his master ate away at his mind as much as he had at the squirrel. Prodding him, begging him not to listen… the things he asked. He felt like Abraham on the mountain, holding a knife above his child, begging for the final Word not to come.
They had been hunting this man for weeks. No, not hunting really. More like trailing him, making him think he would die at any moment. Kitsune were once considered myth except by maybe a few Japanese old-timers. Times had changed. His fox tail wagged back and forth, not like a dog, more like perhaps, a playful feline. If he were to ever get caught in the world of men, it would because of that stupid tail. The Kitsune's stomach ached for more. These past few weeks had been stressful on him, and his master ate away at his mind as much as he had at the squirrel. Prodding him, begging him not to listen… the things he asked. He felt like Abraham on the mountain, holding a knife above his child, begging for the final Word not to come.
I'm
starving, Tails. Jeeeez. He's not
going to get away.
A
chirping noise yelped in the night, and The Kitsune was relieved it
was him and not his master.
It was his Ryuuji, who now
flapped
down to his shoulder on his
nubile wings. He was a small
lizard with wings, a drakeling-- he cooed and cawed, making himself
comfortable upon the Kitsune's shoulder, stretching
his legs like a cat. His
wings were bat-like, and his face resembled the rough skin newt.
Brown with a pebble-like texture, orange-belly advertising the poison
which coursed
through his cobalt blood, he was was sleepy, yawning.
I'm
famished. We've been hunting all day. That man is going
bug nuts down there. It was an ancient accent, but
perversely, also the voice of a young male child. It was Ryuuji,
speaking directly to him. One might call it telepathic, but in truth
it felt deeper than that, like invisible electric currents jetting
between them.
“Tell
me more about the man,” the Kitsune's said. His was a textured
voice, like it had bounced through hollow driftwood.
Young
Ryuuji snapped his teeth, looking almost annoyed that he had to go on
about something in which he cared so little. Stupid as ever. He
keeps slamming into trees and knocking himself out. Made it
out though. He's on the tar mac now. He will never reach home
again. He is-”
The
Kitsune could only hunt at night, it was true. The moon gave him
power, and when there was no moon there was no Kitsune. He was a
dream creature-- and in moments his outline seemed to fade like an
image in water. It was ripple, dance, making no logical sense. In the
previous world this may have disturbed the viewer. Now it was somehow
possible, probable in fact.
The
man below him was a mile ahead. He could hear him panting, afraid to
go forward, afraid to be seen. Yes, there are enemies
in the gates, my prey, the
Kitsune thought. You are wise to remain unseen even by your
own brothers. He was crazed, as Ryuuji had said, but not stupid after all. He
was a noble man of Sir Jacob Adami's school. He was a Zenai, a man of
the samurai sword, forged of a mystical stone, found ages back by an
archeologist. The Kitsune thought of the hunt. The worst was when he
had chased him across the open plains. There was little cover there,
and the beasts were fiercer, ready for man-flesh.
Thinking
about Jacob Adami, my friend? Your master won't
like that.
The
Kitsune shot Ryuuji a venomous glance. “It's none of your business,
wyrmling. Maybe I ought to eat you next.”
Ryuuji
didn't move. The Kitsune
imagined
that he would have shrugged his shoulders if he could.
Eat away. You'll be pushing fire through your bowels for
weeks.
The
Kitsune stifled a laugh which sounded like a deep
yip. He tossed Ryuuji the last
squirrel bone he
had been holding onto for later
and the little dragon snapped it out of air. Through Ryuuji's bites,
the Kitsune spoke: “The Master is coming again.
I can sense him. You better be far away from me when he does, young
one. I cannot always control myself when he pierces me.”
Don't
have to tell me twice, Tails. He
yawned again and then lunged
into the air with the squirrel bone in his mouth, flying into the
darker night. The world was cooling, becoming quieter. It was as if
they all knew he was coming, the forest itself. The dragon looked
back at him but for a moment. Be careful, you stupid
Kitsune sonabitch. And then he
was gone in the night.
*
* *
The
timberland was thick with Douglas fir. It was a rain forest, with fog
crawling through the coniferous jungle. This had once been Ponderosa
pine woodland, with scattered scrubs and dried weeds between the
distant trunks, almost a prairie. Now moss hung on branches like too
much tinsel on a Christmas tree, as if it was imagined by Sir Arthur
Conan Doyle. The trees were never-ending, lush, dangerous. Once magic
returned to the world, everything had become a fairy-tale. Dragons
roosted in their mountain cave-holes, protecting their treasure
hordes, no longer gold, but valuable ancient computer components,
manufacturing goods, things that would have rebuilt society if they
weren't stolen away. There were aforementioned roving night-spirits,
visible in the dark but also present in the day, cackling in the
breeze. Mushrooms ballooned, growing the size of bushes, of trees, of
large animals. And the elves ruled again. A man could not dilly-dally
into the groves without risking his sanity, his self of self. He may
come back without a mind, or worse, with a donkey's head for his own.
The
Kitsune's fox ears twitched. A hooting owl silenced itself. The night
continued to chill, and goose pimples rose along his exposed skin.
Parts of him were covered in a lipstick-shaded layer of soft hair.
Even here his skin was cold. It was an unnatural feeling, and one he
had grown familiar with over the years. The freeze slithered across
his skin like a serpent and then dove into his blood, dripping
lethargically through his insides once it hit fluid. He shivered,
yes, shivered. You would think that it would stop, after having
experienced this sensation so many times, but he knew that could
never be true. It was a creature of another dimension poking its head
into our own-- and that sense of dread, it was something every man
faces once in his life, if he knows it or not. He suddenly wished he
hadn't told Ryuuji to leave. It was near unbearable to speak with the
master ALONE.
The
Kitsune's doleful tail was motionless. He knew it was only a matter
of time before HE spoke to him. He had been expecting it all night,
and he considered his duty, like a man knowing he must wake early in
the morning for a long day of work.
It
was a moaning. A deep moaning. Not from out there, with the spirits,
the woodland, or even, God forbid, the moon. A deep moaning, forming
into a hum, which if you listened closely enough became discernible,
like a new language you were finally getting the hang of.
Hellllllo,
it whispered into his elongated left ear. No it was inside his ear.
Hellllloooo. It was in the center of his head now, begging him
to question everything, his sanity even. It was the voice of a komodo
dragon. Deep. Full of the texture of a lizard's mouth, with its
dagger-teeth and poison-saliva. It was nothing like Ryuuji's electric
jolt of thoughts in his brain. Instead, it sunk into his soul, into
the deep unconscious that would snap him awake at 2 AM in the
morning, feeling like a ghost passing through him. The
night was incredibly dark-- his vision was failing in horror.
Fox-man. Fox-man. Oh dirty, mortal fox-man, full of pulsing
blue blood, convulsing organs ready to be popped like tasty
zittttttts. The voice was coherent and incoherent at the same
time, for it was a nightmare voice. It didn't make any sense.
Fox-man, Fox-man. Full of spite man. You hate the man.
You Hate HIM. Don't you?
“Yes,
Master,” he answered impassively, hiding the fear inside. There was
sweat building in his arm pits and along his brow. It was a lie, and
he knew that the voice could see him, see his thoughts for what they
were. Why did he even bother?
You
want to kill him, don't you, my fox dream? You want to kill the
stupid, stupid man who ran through your forest. You
want him dead. In the Kitsune's mind he saw a man's eyes widening
with each word, the voice growing stronger with each syllable. The
Kitsune didn't want to speak with his Master, not now, not ever
again, but he had made his choice long ago.
He
pictured the man falling, a lump sack, shaking between the trees,
shaking, shaking, then stopping. An arrow was in his back. Yes, that
was what he wanted. He felt his tail erect. I see what you
are thinking. But that would go against my orderssssss, fox-man. That
would go against my. Orders. Fox-mannnnn. The
voice was turning into a hiss. Even
though the voice raved at it him with its venom-fanged verboseness,
he felt lonesome, a forsaken itch gnawing at his skin-- it was only
he in these woods. Everything else had hidden away under their
collective blankets. Do you plea for them, my fox dream?
Plea for them to emerge from the night shadows and save your
tenderness from the boogy-woogy man? Ain't
going to happen, cupcake, it
growled. Ain't
even going to happen. You're mine for
always.
He
was helpless against it. There was no escape from the nothingness.
His
Master was a force of not nature, perhaps, but anti-nature… maybe
even anti-matter.
He
could see ITs face… no it wasn't a face, it was a blank space with
white shining teeth, like the Cheshire Cat, and burning red eyes.
They shot into him, seeing his soul, all of it, all of its cracks,
indentations, cuts. IT knew. IT knew everything. His MASTER had
walked upon the earth once, wearing sandals, speaking a tongue of
hate. NOW it could only speak through others, many many others
throughout the years. It was the creepy crawling spider beneath the
dark ocean waves, It was the sinking feeling in your groin when you
hear a beloved is dying. It was division, it was the crossroad demon
at midnight, it was the grand schism-maker with its sheath,
destroying matter and defecating it into formless mass.
I'm
growing tired of you, foxdream. The
smile expanded until it connected to the back of its barren skull.
Do your job, and I'll give you the world.
He
knew the Master did not lie.
A
vision flashed through his eye, snapping like one of those trick
noisemakers kids use on the 4th of July. It was a valley
lush with trees growing toward the moon, untouched by man's grimy
hands, so used to crawling in the dirt, and dragons roosted in them
in nests made of gems and straw. There were thousands of them. They
were the size of 747's, yes, but also smaller juveniles-- maroon, the
darkest of blacks, the goldest of golds. Their scaly hides reflected
the sun, and their cooing, their growling, sounding like giant birds.
The fox-men… they also climbed through the trees, tending the
lionhearts, feeding them meats from the kill, vegetables harvested
from the fields far to the east. Men, men were trash in the dirt…
they had no place in the foxdream's world. The vision had been so
perfect he had almost forgotten about IT, but the voice returned,
like a demon sliding into a sick person's conscious. Or I'll take it
away, the creeping said, I'll take it all away. I'll kill that whom
is closest to you, the only man which you care. I'll kill him.
“No,”
he spoke aloud. “Please no.”
Then
do as I say.
“I
will,” he pleased. “I will, Master.”
*
* *